Sedih...

I sedih sangat malam ni.I rasa sebak kat dalam hati.Air mata ni murah sangat,mudah je tumpah.

I nak minta maaf pada you,kerana I tak mampu jadi diri I yang sebenar depan you.I minta maaf.

Itulah Gunanya Kawan

Assalamualaikum semua,

Belek-belek balik gambar-gambar kita masa tahun pertama di fakulti ini, dan melihat balik wajah-wajah muda kita dulu, megimbau balik saat-saat manis bersama. Di ketika kita masih mula berkenalan dan mengenali satu sama lain, wajah kita sentiasa tersenyum dan ceria bersama. Pada saat kita mula memahami antara satu sama lain, hati sentiasa menerima, gembira bersama. kisah duka dahulu, kini hanya menjadi kenangan dan teladan dikaburi saat-saat gelak tawa bersama. Tanpa mu teman, ku tidak mampu sampai ke tahap ini. Dengan mu di sisi, aku dapat menyulusuri ranjau-ranjau berduri fakulti ini :) Terima kasih, wahai teman bernama kawan~

The Pressure Test

"It's a doomsday."

I didn't remember how many times I had repeated those words during the test until my day was really doomed.

* * *

It was all started just after we finished the final exam for the seventh semester, when we were reminded about a test that had been long forgotten - THE COMPETENCY TEST.

Whatever.

Then the semester break flew away just like that and the nightmare began. Truly, we couldn't run from anything in this world, except a dog.

I was troublesomed by my social-less lifestyle and lack of presence more than not having patient for the upcoming test, which was two day after the new semester started. Why? Because of that, I didn't get any message about it(not even through the thin air, technology had really killed it!) and as a result, I was enlisted to be among the first 'black-sheep' group to be tested.

Blank. Blank. Blank.

Alhamdulillah, luckily my partner had voluntarily passed her patient with maybe a golden case(Class II DO) to me just the morning of the day for the test(I knew you just wanted to escaped..hohoh). Just took it like that as I was not so sure what the afternoon would be. Nobody knows except Him.

To cut the long story short.

The patient arrived 5 minutes later than the exact appointment time (appointment time -2:30p.m, arrival time- 2:35p.m. The appointment time itself was very late. Don't ask me why. Better late than never!). I could put the blame on Le Tour de Langkawi and forgave him (although he works with MPAJ, just a neighbour building).

Explanation to patient + screening by doctor,

"Complete the E&D, take x-ray,do EPT test and present before 3 o'clock."

"Yes, Sir!!!" I wanted to address him like that instead of Doctor.

3.45 p.m. I didn't have any idea how did I lost the previous 10 minutes.

Why was the x-ray room seemed so far away in another kingdom? Another 15 minutes gone.

Presentation in progress... (tried my best to act cool and normal).

"&#$%%^***@#$..."

The slang of the doctor+his voice underneath his mask+my hearing blocked due to flu = I didn't really get what he was saying, yet I did stupid thing by nodding my head freely, three of us stared at each other, waiting for a crow to pass by, until another examiner doctor mention something about "LA".

"What is the type of the LA?"

"Amide?"

"????"

I took the cartridge and read (nervously but without guilty) "Mepivacaine". Thanks to the manufacturer.

Applying rubber dam on patient was one of the reason why human cannot be alone, no matter how anti-social you are. But some tricks did save the time. The feeling of passing this challenge was like I just went through half of the challenge, although I was not even half of the half itself. Whatever it was, at least the time to hold the handpiece had finally come.

The bracket table seemed a milestone away from me, so I pulled it close towards me. It backed off. I pulled it again and like a spring, it backed off. "Wanna fight, huh?". This time I pulled it stronger and...

"(Imagine the sound of dental instruments falling down to the floor. Or the sound of pots colliding during rewang.)"

Panic at the clinic. What would you do? Save the burs first!!!! (And I leave the rest for your imagination).

Caries free, cavity preparation, Dycal, GIC lining, Amalgam... all of our daily routines and best friends were there. Sounds normal, right? Except for the pop questions from the doctors that made me wanted to think that I was having short-term amnesia due to the test shock!

5:00pm - I was the 'Cinderella' who was still trying her best to carve the Amalgam into some unknown tooth morphology against the clock chime.

"Have you fractured the amalgam?" asked the 'stepfather' doctor.

"No." No way! "I am removing the high spots.".

Less than 5 minutes later, Cinderella me walked towards 'stepfather' doctor with a white flag on her back.

"Doctor, I've fractured the amalgam."

"I know."

Why was I not surprised with your answer?

* * *

Assalamualaikum semua..

Lama dah tak jenguk blog ni..Lama sangat la..Yang jenguk ni pon sebab tiba2 ada sorang batchmate kita (yakni roommate kesayangan saya) ni baca balik entry beliau dulu..And xpercaya yang beliau pernah tulis macam tu dalam blog ni..Hehe..(Saya xnak baca yang saya punyer entry,maluu..huhu..)

Tapi..2 la orang panggil kenangan kan..Kalau tak,tak letak “MEMOIR” la jadi headline blog ni..Betul tak?(Tak betol pon,kena betol jugak!)

Erm,takde ape nak dipostkan pon..Just nak wish Good Luck exam and let’s treasure our journey to Bangkok soon!(Err..exam tak habis lagi tapi dah sebok dengan Bangkok..huhu..Ada tanda2 stress di situ..)

Ok semua,all the best~

p/s: Rupa2nya N****a(juga roommate kesayangan saya) tak ntar MEMOIR dulu..Beliau baru ja confess td..

best of luck, friends

semoga Allah mempermudahkan urusan kita semua

penantian itu memang menyeksakan...

people always said that penantian itu satu penyeksaan

in fact it is penyeksaan and it always menyeksakan

let me share a long story with you guys from my point of view

it happen several days ago

we were like so happy to go to penang

indeed

it was the first marriage in our batch

and it's okay for us to feel the excitement

we gather at al-falah (kedai mamak kat bawah gv) to eat something which kononnya nak alas perut la kan

and after everything was settle, we took cabs to go to bukit jalil's bus station

adoyai...

sampai sana masih lagi awal *sigh*

ada kira-kira sejam lebih lagi before the scheduled time for the bus nak sampai

camne ni??????

i hate waiting!

nasib baiklah beramai-ramai

bila dah ramai ni

paham-paham je la

banyak stories

so time flies

but even the time flies, that particular bus was not there

ni yang aku benci bas trans ni..kata aku di hati dan di mulut

after was like 30 minutes waiting for the bus

datang la seketul bas yg nak ke arah utara gak

passengers to butterworth were asked to take the bus to hentian duta

kata manusia trans itu

bus untuk ke butterworth kita akan amek di sana (hentian duta)

ok la

fine

as long as not that long

i can be patient

hentian duta

penumpang ke butterworth turun kat sini

we all pun turun la

but there no such signs that bus to butterworth is there

i smell something fishy here

and indeed!

the bus still not there

adoiiiii

do we need to wait again

arrrgghhh!

sakit betul hati aku dengan bus trans ni!

we waited for 2 hours at hentian putra

and i was like giving up on going to penang

ye la

tak sanggup nak tunggu lagi

and Alhamdulillah

the bus arrived on 2.00pm

stress taw!!!!

after the total waiting time for about 3 hours

we arrived penang safely on 6.00pm

musnah impian kami nak beli buah kat tapah coz the driver was like so kalut to sampai to penang as soon as possible

there, we waited for people to send us to the homestay

and before that

we went to a restaurant to eat

ye la ko

makan kat al-falah je kot pagi tu

memang la perut semua dah berkeroncong

bukan keroncong lagi

siap main lagu heavy metal kot

lepas makan

kita pun pergi la tempat homestay tu

and sekali lagi

we need to wait for the tuan rumah to come and give us the key

aduhai

lama sungguh

memang la hari yang penuh dengan penantian

stress gila

masa tu memang rasa penat gile dah

hukhuk....

bersambung................

post baru, tahun baru

salam'alaik buat semua rakan warga dent2 dan pembaca (cheh, bajet ada org nak baca blog kanak-kanak riang dent2)

Alhamdulillah

marilah kita merafa'kan kesyukuran yang tak terhingga kepada Allah

atas limpah kurnia serta kasihNya

kita masih lagi bernyawa hari ni

setahun lagi usia meningkat

semakin dekat kita dengan kematian

Alhamdulillah juga

kita semua dah start clinical session dalam 4 bulan gitu

mcm2 dugaan dan rintangan yg mendatang

tp semuanya masih lagi cekal berdiri

dan tabah menghadapi klinik yg ku kira mencabar sgt2

buat semua,

hargailah org sekeliling yg menyayangi kita

sbb kita tak tahu bila kita akan berpisah

take care semua

sayang warga dent2

:)